Then one day i wanted to make a female friend so i had to talk to a girl so i waited till the bus got empty which was a kilometer away from my house there was this girl i did not know her she came towards me , with heavy breathing and hesitation i said "good afternoon madam" , it was awkward because i never say that and that too she was wearing her id card !!, that creepy old guy sitting in front of my college was right i was a dumbfu
I talked to the girl , kept talking and successfully made a friend later she introduced me to her friend Nivetha then she introduces me to the worlds number one optically deceiving demon in human form she was called Vaishnavi later i named her avatar looking at her not so cute rash marks on her face which made her look like Christopher Nolan's alien with a little more tan , the girl who i now call my sweet salt lovable and most hated sister she was also a friend of the girl who i saw on the corridor
After a few months of talking she introduces me to the most awesome person on the planet Vaidheghi { the girl from the corridor } this was the time i thanked the person who invented Facebook and Bairam college
Legal hell on earth
Vaidheghi the love of my life, the girl that got away .
I was not a great guy but i was honest
I was not attractive but my intentions with her was not sexual
I was not capable of making her happy but i would have given my life to do it
She cared for me as a friend i did not want it because cheating in a relationship of any kind is wrong so i told her that i was in love with her i don't want to lie and i promised her i will take care of her till death parts us and i asked her if she would marry me ... all she could ask was the list of people i said these lines exact lines to
I felt bad i felt hurt i had no one to share my feelings i was lying there on the bed all night staring at the ceiling fan there was no one who would listen to me , understand me i could get was jokes and irritating people calling me by her name which made me hate her all the affection i had on her , yet i was the one suffering
Right then that night after two days of when vaidheghi asked me that question i made a promise to myself never ever fall in love with a woman who is not having the intention of getting into a relationship with
What is going to happen if i stay single or what could have happened if i had got into a relationship with her the answer is nothing
There i recalled everything i did to impress her then i started and focused my anger and concentration towards something else in my case alcohol !!
When i drank i felt empty i felt satisfied
Along with drinking came the habit of smoking i did it once the pain inside of me cane out with the dense foggy smoke through my nostrils i felt balanced
I would have not been alive by this time if it was not for my sister and my friends who are still there for me , Vaidheghi did not care if i ask her can i smoke she was like enavo senji thola if it was a friend he or she would have said kaila vecha un kaiya odaipen vaile vecha un vaya kelipen
This was the time i felt friendship was way greater than a wife
One friend is equal to 100 relationships
My parents were not there for me ,they did not know that part of my life
My friends were not there for me , they had better things to do
Vaidheghi was not there for me , because she was waiting for the time i would leave
All i had was my sister vaishu she was there to scold me when i did something wrong to tell me what my mistake was and to watch over me . I know i am not an infant but still not all problems can be solved using the same formula she knew it she knows what i would do what i wouldn't every byte of my character , she is one of the good things that ever happen to me this person has a special place in my life i will never ever let her go i will hold on to her like diabetes