My First Love

  Yes, we have got the gang. We used to bunk and hangout together. I met Gautham on the 3rd day of college and I knew we both had a lot in common. We always argued with each other, used to

  humiliate each other, talk about our crushes, talk about girls he liked. We would hangout with everyone but I always knew we are closer to each other.

  He has a great sense of humour and he would make us all laugh so hard.

                      Years passed by, that's when we had our college trip,things started to get a bit different. It was a 4-day trip

      I began to sense some kind of tension between us and it was really funny to me because it was Gautham. I really dint understand what it was.

        And it was hard for me to convince myself that I had feelings for Gautham. I hardly spoke with him or spent time with him.

        We spent the whole time in the tour with the gang but we hardly spoke to each other.

                             It was hard for me and I also started to miss him as he was my best friend

            It was the last day of our tour, we boarded the train, we decided to talk about it, we went near the train doors {yeah, it was cheesy:P}

            He started to tell how much he liked me, how much he missed me. I stood there staring at him wondering what he was trying to tell me.

    It was not a proposal because there was no "I love you" .I din't speak a word because I was still figuring out what he was feeling.

           Police and the TC passed by giving us an awkward look. Atlast he asked me if I would leave him, I promised that I wouldn't. I really din't understand what I was promising.

           I was never so scared and also happy.

                           Later, we both decided we were good as friends and leave it for time to decide.

   We started to pretend everything was normal. No matter how hard I tried it was never like the old times. Afterall, I'm a girl, it was never easy to forget.

  We never spoke about that day later and we never stopped talking to each other because we were good friends.

                             Years passed by, we moved on with our lives, we are still in touch. He's out there living his life happily, as I'm living mine.

   I never regretted what happened between us, not even a single time. Afterall, life is full of uncertainity.

   Whenever I look back to the day on train, it feels wonderfull, everything was so true, those emotions and anxiety and I'm really glad it happened to me.

 

                                         This is my story, it was my first love and I will never forget it.